my darling is gone.

my 8511820, it was broken into pieces.i knew it's hard for me to mend it back like i did 4years back. i noe i couldn't. without u by my side, everything is impossible ald. i was speechless when i saw the cut. all i could do is to sob... after it happened. nothing else. wish i'll be able to get it fix. dunno how long will i need to recover. u're alwiz like this. whenever i need u to be there, u're jus not there. tell me y. i've been sleeping one or two hours everyday lately. i dunno wat's wrong wit me. wat am i becoming into? a slut? or a bitch? whoa, i'm so stress. dam many things unsettle. oh god. have i really fallen into u? i duno wat am i toking. kejap tis kejap that. good also, no one will understand. when i knew it's gone, my heart broke into thousand pieces. till now it's not mend yet. not even 1%. oh... dun wan to sob. wish i could jus stop in the middle of the road i'm walking. no stress. everything will be solve. will it? going visiting somemore tis sunday. really dun have the mood to go at all. well, my acting skills is good as it alwiz use to be. no one will finds out. i jus dun understand y mus this always happen to me? y mus u do this to me? kill me plz. someone plz kill me. i dun wan to face the stress. glad glad where r u?are u gone? i wish i could turn back time. i din noe it mean so much to me until yesterday. i realized how important it is to me. wat to do. it's ald too late. i realized i was controlling my temper quite well that day. not to give compliment to myself la. but i really think so. haih. i've been waiting for u for hours. and wat the hell u doin? as usual.. i'm so tired of it. y mus u walk in?y mus it be u and not someone else? guess u jus walk in at the right time. well, i think it's really time for u to leave. phew.. wat a long post. yet, i'm still waiting.i really hate u. hate u.. gonna hate u for this. my precious is gone.argh...