another day

sigh. 8.40am now. suppose to be extremely tired but jus dun feel anything. nothing at all. toking rite now to....... sien la. go home hav to put a mask. go uni aso hav to wear. so sick and tired of this. really dunno how long more i can hold onto this. been trying to pretend ntg happen. i jus cant. whenever i see euu, i jus cant stop thinking of those old days. jus cant stop. hate ar hate ar hate ar. jus one of those days gua. but i really dam moody la tis whole week. CNY is jus 7 days more and i feel ntg.. NOTHING!!!! U see.. more than 7 days wont see euu. hope things will b better. trying my best not to msg or cal u. jus trying my best to stay away fr euu. and y mus u treat me like last time? things changed. be realistic for goodness sake. y mus u do tis to me today? i really dam san fu ok. at one point of time i dun wanna see euu. hours later i wish u're here. but u're not. god, plz tel me what should i do? really clueless le. i've fell many times. yet each time i got up. tis time... i hope i can do the same too. really tired of it. dunno arrrrr........... is there any1 put here willing to lend me a shoulder to cry on?